Happy New Year, everyone!! Sorry I didn't get a chance to update on the first of the year...I stayed at Annette's to spend some more time with my friends and by the time I got back home, it was really late. We ended up sleeping in a little bit and then just played rock band (I finally got a chance to try the drums! Being as I always play the guitar, it was new and exciting and I think I'm becoming quite a [sort of] drummer!) and watched sailor moon all day. We ended up going to Denny's for dinner, and then headed over to the Dollar Movie Theatre to see Batman. It was amazing!!


and today was spent back at my parents' house, in my bed. I somehow managed to get sick again...I'm almost certain it's a sinus infection and i feel absolutely miserable. I hope it goes away soon...I'm sitting here with a box of puffs, sniffing vic's vapo rub, and, of course, I have my vic's night light plugged in as well. I feel so icky...and a little stressed being as classes begin Monday and my honey wants to take me out for a Birthday Dinner...ugh and I look like the bride of Frankenstein...I really want to dress up nice for him, so I really hope I feel better!! Otherwise, no makeup! It'd be running everywhere with how watery my eyes have been today...


So, tomorrow I plan on driving back to school and seeing him for a while. I'm hoping to grab some coffee with Heather, too! I miss her so much! We used to get together quite often...now it seems we only see each other at Sigma events... BUT we decided that we are going to find some more time for each other this semester!!


Speaking of trying to do things...I have a few new year's resolutions. I don't usually do these, but there are some things I've noticed that I really really want to work on lately. So, making new year's resolutons seems to be something that may benefit me greatly right now. I figured, why not? It definately can't hurt...so, here it goes...


1. Don't let stress rule my life. My New Philosophy: Decide what is truly important and there will be enough time to finish everything that really matters. Prioritize. (most of the things I find myself really stressing over are completely out of my control). I think I may find an attractive-looking version of the Serenity prayer and tape it up by my desk.


2. Make more time for Sigma and friends.


3. Do not let work overpower school. The only time this is OK is during floorset week ;) Hey...it's a start! (I am a bit of a workaholic...I need to work on this slowly and in steps...plus, floorset is only once a month).


4. Work on communication skills. (This is something I'm working on with my therapist, Michelle). No lying or beating around the bush. Tell people how I feel (effectively) and know when it is appropriate (or not) to do so.


5. Check email and facebook regularly. I'm getting tired of missing out on good things!


Ok, some of those are going to be pretty easy and others are going to take a lot of effort and time. However, I've given these a lot of thought and I'm sure that everything is completely possible. 1, 3, and 4 are going to be the hardest (those are the things I've been working on for years...the good news is that I've improved in all of them very much...so hopefully, this year, I can do that even more than ever before!!)

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Well, hello there! I just got back to campus last night and it's even quieter than it was before I left. Imagine that...


On a happier note, I've been studying a lot for the math placement exam, which will hopefully help me move up a couple math classes. I feel a lot better about the material now that I've found the books my parents bought me waaay back when I was in middle school. They cover everything from first grade mathematics to college level, so they have been helping me review a ton! On top of that, Brian said he would help me study some more <3. I plan on taking the test within the first few weeks after winter classes start, which happens this coming Monday. I'm super excited!! I also fixed my class schedule today and I finally got registered into the literature class I need (it's almost always filled up!!). I also have psychology of sex, political theory, and my chemistry lecture and lab. Now, I just have to tackle that math test!! Wish me luck!!


So, I bet you're wondering what's been going on since my last blog? Well, I ended up going home to visit my family for the holidays. I feel a lot better and, now that I'm back at school, I feel refreshed and ready for the new year and the new semester My heart feels a lot better now, I've been sleeping so well! My mom also sent me back with a huge bottle of vitamins to keep me healthy and, of course, with a care package filled with tv dinners and canned goods (totally beats living off ramen until Monday lol). I also got candies and cookies left over from Christmas!! yummy...


I've also been working on my photo album...so go ahead and check that out. It's located under the webmistress section. It has a new layout and tons of photos now. Just something to look at if you ever get bored lol.


and as for the celebrating...Christmas eve was a lot of fun. We had Scott, Julie, Paige, Great Grandma, Uncle Ted, and Aunt Cindy over. It was a nice, relaxing evening. We had mexican lasagna for dinner with tons of other random dishes. Scott made these amazing spinach pies with crumbles of blue cheese in them (sounds disgusting, right?? ohh they were so good though!!) and, of course, Aunt Cindy made her famous caramel, chocolate chip brownies. Sierra, mom, grandma, dad, and I made a whole bunch of cookies and cakes...and a couple gingerbread houses! They were really fun to make!!


For Christmas day, we ended up going to Aunt Amy and Uncle Ron's house. It was so nice! My dad's whole family was there and we had a lot of presents to open and a lot of jokes and stories to tell. I talked to Uncle Roy about school for a while and how I changed my plan. He encouraged me to do what will make me happy and what I'd be good at...so, I changed it back and started studying for the LSAT that night. Then, of course, started working on math .


I spent the rest of my time at home hanging out with my friend, Chey, and my little sister and our cousin, Kat. I did my kitten puzzle that I've been meaning to do since last year and read a book titled, Go Ask Alice. It was a really quick read being as it's a teeny book, but I enjoyed it. It's a diary written by a young teen who got slipped LSD in her cup during a dangerous party game, became addicted to many many drugs, and it just ended up in a downward spiral and a lot of crazy things happened to her. Good book that only takes a couple hours to read.


Ok, well, I'm getting quite tired and I plan on going to Annette's house tomorrow to celebrate new year's. I'm so excited!! I'll get to see my old friends from high school! Jake and Chris and hopefully Jesse will all be there! I miss them all so much! So excited!!


and tomorrow is my 20th birthday!! yay!!


also, i put up an affie gift from Shaina!! <3 <3 <3 Thanks dear!! (She's so sweet!!)

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I can't wait until Wednesday! Corporate decided, for whatever insane reason, to do the spring trans floorset a few days before Christmas...

So, I am once again stuck here in Ypsi over a holiday break. Gotta love retail. At least the dorms aren't completely empty, though. There have been contractors all over the place, fixing the heating systems and the sinks in the bathroom...Some of the residence hall staff also stayed to work...and I have Virginia and Kaylen <3 <3 <3 Love them both... and Brian sometimes <3 <3 <3 Love him too

On the bright side, I will be home in time for the Christmas Eve Party and I may be able to stay for the rest of break, as well, being as my heart has been really bothering me lately...so I have been talking to Corey about taking time off work until February. I told him I just needed some time to organize, get winter semester started off right, and finally deal with some of these health problems before they get worse. We definately don't need that, now do we?

So, have you noticed anything?? That's right... NEW LAYOUT!! Featuring the lovely Kiera Knightley. Isn't it gorgeous? I really love this one...

Also, made some new pretty glittery things, myspace layouts, and added a shuni section to the cartoon dolls. Currently making some new avatars, coded layouts, and more glitters. Let me know if you want me to make you anything else! I'm gladly accepting requests Love you all! Have a happy holiday season! and keep in touch! <3 <3 <3 <3

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making some kind of soup with potatoes in it. I'm cutting these potatoes, which are already peeled naked and rinsed clean. This woman is trying to kill me, but it's supposed to be a secret. I know, though, somehow. I'm allergic to strawberries. There are strawberries in the sink and she's urging me to taste some stawberry yogurt. While I'm frantically cleaning, my stomach is churning...This woman is insane. She's mad.




The little girl's bedroom is around the corner and across the hall. The woman is heard yelling, angry, merciless. I wander into the bedroom, quickly, to make sure the little one is ok. The woman is gone. The little girl is not crying, but she looks distant - dazed and confused. She complains that her stomach hurts. I hold her hand for a minute, and lift up her shirt to find burns and welts, like road rash and whip bites. She covers her face with both hands and then moves them slightly apart, peeking through at me.


"If mommy hits my face, can i cover it? Like this? Can i cover it?"






I know it's completely cliche to write and then i woke up, however, this dream has been haunting me all week. Almost every night I've been experiencing some part of it. I don't want to fall asleep. I have no idea where it's coming from - I haven't watched any movies or read anything even close to horror or abuse. This dream keeps coming back, over and over, like a boomerang...except I can't throw it anywhere.

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